my life in depression

You Lead me O God! Give me peace of mind! I now need is a happy family! are able to smile in the course of the day I still distant. I can not afford to be the only cheater fake smile in my days, when I'm with friends, sometimes I feel very humble, because I do not like them, who have all love. but I?? I only have perfection is, that I need is love. that can guide me live happily without stress and I personally can not control these passions. I try to be a child, a best friend and lover, but in my life that I can not make this kind of self-restraint and emotional, grumpy nature of self control! I prefer to be alone than hang out, now I just have to say powerful friends, even though I was takot that one day a friend turned into lawn as difficult one to accept myself! live in stress. I sometimes want to scream own heart to give everything, but I can do it x, if coping with stress as simple as that, I'm sure I will be the one who does not have a voice on this tape. Since I grew up in pressure. my blood pressure rising alarmingly low days, every step more slowly. every time I would be alone and stay alone, only during school hours I can have someone else write the fake smiles, laughter merry with my friends in the hope I can avoid all the problems, but I was wrong! Step when I was home and I was alone. one problem after another come to haunt myself, sometimes I cry, sometimes I smile, sometimes I laugh, sometimes I become a very grumpy ...

i need my life.. real life

stress melanda

im not a perfect girl.. but plez accept me same as other person!!